Tough times

I would like to share this wonderful Buddhist prayer that has kept me going throughout my hardest days. I hope you all find many reasons to smile!! =)

Metta Karuna Prayer

Oneness of Life and Light,
Entrusting in your Great Compassion,
May you shed the foolishness in myself,
Transforming me into a conduit of Love.
May I be a medicine for the sick and weary,
Nursing their afflictions until they are cured;
May I become food and drink,

During time of famine,
May I protect the helpless and the poor,
May I be a lamp,
For those who need your Light,
May I be a bed for those who need rest,
and guide all seekers to the Other Shore.

May all find happiness through my actions,
and let no one suffer because of me.
Whether they love or hate me,
Whether they hurt or wrong me,
May they all realize true entrusting,
Through Other Power,
and realize Supreme Nirvana.
Namo Amida Buddha

Piece of Peace

I’ve been wanting to write again after I found the end of the tunnel of the Hell-o-semester! Now, I am officially one step closer to the official end of my current academic life! The other thing to look forward to is the fact that I’ll be home for Christmas!!!!

I was humming this Christmas carol when I was shopping in a nearby shopping mall. Those people who heard me must have thought that I had a decreased level of consciousness.

Ha! I was not gonna make them jealous by telling them that I had two new members of the family I’ve been longing to meet, who I would finally embrace! And I was not about to tell them that I would have reunions with my old dear friends! Wait until they hear of how I’d visit my old school! They would stone me to death out of jealousy cause I have so many things to look forward to this December! So, there I was, humming this Christmas carol, which never sounded as tuneful before!

Happy Good Friday!

Today I gave myself an almost total break from studying! I hung out with my closest friend, and I got myself a Strawberry Banana Rendezvous™ from Cold Stone Creamery. Promise me you’ll try it. You’ll only be doing yourself a favor. It is sooo good!
So, my friend and I talked about the past and future, while enjoying the present!
Yesterday was one of those cursed days where I had to do one thing I truly despise: letting people see me cry!
Whenever I know I’m about to shed tears, I’ll usually excuse myself and find the nearest isolated room or place.

Just less than a month ago, I locked myself in the restroom, and there was this kind freshman who heard me sobbing. I can’t believe she actually waited for me till I got out from my weeping room! And when I got out, I pretended that nothing ever happened. I acted like, you-know,-it’s-just-a-constipation kind of attitude. She asked me if there’s anything she could help me with. I wonder if she knew that I wouldn’t say yes, even if she could have helped. I truly appreciated it though. What a rare kind lady!

But yesterday was extraordinary. I actually let them see me cry. I guess I did not want to be alone. One of my friends had a similar problem as mine, and we cried together. I know it sound so gay, but..  it had been so long since I cried with someone. Just like laughing, crying bonds people stronger too. And somehow, and for once, I did not regret letting them witness my watery feeling reflected through those silent, but honest tears.

And so, this morning when I woke up, I decided to live this day and not yesterday. So I thought to myself that I ought to have a good Friday! And so it has been a bubbly Friday!
And I hope you have had an “eggcellent” day too! If not, then go have one tomorrow!
Happy Good Friday! =)

PS: Thanks to Mel for the picts ;-)

I can sing a rainbow! And, oh, I shall!!

Just like how the lyrics sings, "Listen with your eyes / Listen with your ears / And sing everything you see"
and so, let's sing along!
*Wide Warm Smile*

Can I call this a.. prologue?

Keeping a journal has always been listed in my new year’s resolutions.
So, one day in the early spring, 2010, I finally asked myself, “Why not today?”
And so, here it goes!

First thing first!
I am intending to keep this blog as my life journal—to be a reminder of where I stand, where I want to stand, and where I will stand.
As I’ve announced in my “about me,” I do feel uneasy when knowing I am being judged, but maybe it will be easier to overcome it earlier than later. Society puts labels in everything—from what you should do to be cool to what bra size girls should wear—and I decide that my blog would reflect me, and not what they imagine me to be.

Nowadays, when I listen to those popular radio stations, all I hear is “Bla Bla Bla” by Kesha. No offense, but try comparing that “song” to “Imagine” by John Lennon. Ask around, and you will be surprised to know how many people actually think “Imagine” is boring and “Bla Bla Bla” is waaay cooler because they’re afraid of those invisible judgmental X-Ray eyes the society possesses. *Laughs*

However, I do think that you should always be aware of their always-changing definition of cool and un-cool, but really, always base your personality on your own values of what is right or wrong. We can never control what they think of us. Expecting everyone to see us as who we truly are, is also, forgive me, impossible! So the best that we can do for ourselves besides controlling what we think of them, is also to control what we think of what they think of us. Because we, just like everyone else, have our own little opinions about “you” and “I.”

Okay! Enough about the complexity of thinking.
We’ll see how long I will adhere to writing in this blog!
Thanks for reading!
More blabbers to come! =)

K.C.